Sometimes life is a funny thing, a never ending adventure. Some days I feel like I have it ALL figured out—all my ducks in a row. Other days I think I am so absolutely clueless.
Yesterday the Lord set me high upon a cliff—so high that I am afraid to look down. His reason for putting me there? Let me tell you…..
We had the most amazing time at church—the sweet, tangible presence of the LORD was there. It was one of those times in the Lord that I just did not want to end. Absolute bliss, heaven here on earth. So, there I was, minding my own business–just basking in the sweet presence of the Holy Spirit, when a prophesy was brought to the congregation. The word was SURRENDER—-surrendering everything to Him.
So I said to the Lord, “Wow God, a word I sooooo understand, but I think this word is for everyone else here. You KNOW I have surrendered my all to You. You know I have been seeking to surrender in every way for the last few years. I think I’m good on this one, Lord.” That message just had to be for everyone else.
NOT!
Just then, that still, small voice from heaven, “My daughter—there is ONE thing in your life that I do not have!”
“Oh my goodness, what could that be—you know I’ll give it to you?”
“There is something that you have taken into your own hands. There is one thing that you have not trusted me with—I need it back. I need you to do ????? for ME. I need you to surrender it to ME so that My will can be done in this area of your life”.
Oh my—-not THAT! I tried so hard to reason with God as to why I just cannot do it. Yes, I gave Him my list of why it is just completely insane. In other words, “You can have anything you want, Lord, but that is just too hard, too uncomfortable, just too much”.
I wondered how often I have been in this place. Where I long to surrender my ALL to the Lord, but tend to hold back when it is way out of my comfort zone. With God we are either in, or we’re out. Life is so short—just a grain of sand in the bigger picture. How will I feel if I get to the end of my life with regrets—like this one thing? How will I feel if I know in my heart that I really should do something about it, but am too afraid. How will I feel if fear held me back from experiencing a HUGE blessing that God has in store for me and my family? Will I stand before Him someday and say “It was just to hard, Lord (and then proceed to give him all my pathetic excuses for NOT being obedient)”. Uuuggg, I NEVER want to look back and regret.
So, here I am standing at the edge of a cliff. To take a step off the edge could be a seriously crazy thing to do. I can find a hundred reasons why I should not do it, why it is so much more comfortable to stay on the edge of the cliff. But, if God’s Word is true, He promises me that if I seek FIRST the Kingdom of God, everything will be added unto me. Perhaps if I just jump off this cliff, I will find my Savior there—and the peace that passes ALL understanding will come when I have surrendered my ONE thing.
Are you like me? Do you have ONE thing that you are holding onto. Does ONE thing keep you on the cliff, instead of at the place where God has COMPLETE authority to do whatever He pleases?
“I know, O Lord, that a man’s life is not his own;
it is not for man to direct his steps.”
Jer 10:23
